Theology and Worship 10.0
Every faith story begins long before we recognize it. Mine did not start with a dramatic conversion moment, but with the slow, steady whisper of God’s presence woven into the ordinary rhythms of life, worship, community, and quiet seasons of searching. Over the years, I have come to realize that belief is not a fixed possession but a living journey, shaped by both revelation and experience.
What I believe today has been forged in the tension between knowing and not knowing, between worship and wondering. My theology has been shaped not only by Scripture and study, but also by life itself, through moments of awe in worship, conversations across cultures, and sacred encounters when grace meets human frailty.
This reflection is not an attempt to present a perfect creed, but an honest articulation of the faith that has taken root in me —the belief that continues to evolve as I learn to see God more clearly. It is a story of how grace, truth, and love have intersected in my life, shaping not only what I believe but who I am becoming.
How My Story Has Led Me to This Place
I remember the words of my pastor during my teenage years in Gboko, Benue State, Nigeria: “Your journey and your foundation are two things that make a man. The foundation will determine how long and how high the journey can go.” Over time, I’ve found this statement to be profoundly shaping my life and faith.
My journey of faith has been one of gradual unveiling, a story of grace, struggle, and continual rediscovery of God’s presence in unexpected places. I grew up surrounded by the rhythms of worship and the language of faith. From early on, I realized that I am made for prayer, and that worship is not merely sound or ritual, but a life lived in resonance with the heartbeat of God.
Church was not simply a weekly gathering; it was the environment that formed my earliest understanding of God and what it means to live in His world. Worship, I learned, is not religious dogma but a genuine spiritual experience expressed in how we live.
Over time, life’s complexities began to test these early beliefs. Seasons of disappointment, unanswered prayers, and human brokenness stretched my faith, forcing me to wrestle with God’s goodness and sovereignty. I remember the night our housemaid was diagnosed with a chronic illness. I had prayed fervently for her healing, and when the diagnosis came, I felt my faith shaken. Yet, in my desperation, I felt a gentle whisper in my spirit: “I am with you, and I will carry you through this.” That moment marked a turning point in my faith journey. I began to understand that faith is not about avoiding difficulties but trusting God amid them. Scripture reminds us, “The testing of our faith produces perseverance” (James 1:3).
Worship untested remains lip service; the refining fire of life transforms belief into lived reality.
My encounters with diverse cultures, ministries, and theological perspectives further expanded my understanding. I recall my first encounter with members of the Cherubim and Seraphim Church, also known as the “White Garment” denomination. Their worship practices were different from my own upbringing, yet their devotion offered both surprise and insight. Respecting their approach taught me that God’s work transcends denominational boundaries and cultural expectations.
Participating in cross-cultural ministry reinforced this understanding. During a mission trip to Buruku Local Government Area in Benue State, I worshiped with a local church community in Buruku town. As we sang and danced together, I was struck by their passion and devotion, forged through years of perseverance in the face of hardship. Meeting Arabian Christians whose worship posture mirrored cultural practices unfamiliar to me further revealed how tradition shapes worship, while God’s truth transcends boundaries.
Theology, I realized, is not merely a set of abstract ideas; it is the lived story of God with His people across time and culture.
These experiences brought me to this point in my journey, where I see faith not as a destination but as an ongoing pilgrimage toward the heart of God.
Who I Have Become as a Result of My Beliefs
My journey of faith has shaped not only what I believe but also who I am. I have become someone who seeks God’s presence actively in every aspect of life, from worship services to quiet reflection. My faith has cultivated patience, resilience, and humility. I approach both success and failure with gratitude, recognizing that every experience —whether joyful or painful —is an opportunity to encounter God more deeply.
Believing in a gracious and sovereign God has transformed my approach to others. I strive for empathy, seeing the struggles and stories of those around me, responding with compassion rather than judgment. My beliefs have also given me the courage to take risks in ministry, engage with diverse communities, and embrace growth opportunities, even when they feel uncomfortable.
Furthermore, my faith has shaped my approach to worship leadership and theological reflection. I integrate Scripture, doctrine, and personal experience to guide others toward authentic encounters with God. I aim to model a faith that is both thoughtful and heartfelt, rooted in the understanding that theology is meant to be lived, not merely studied.
How I Describe Myself These Days, in Terms of My Faith
Today, I describe myself as a learner, a pilgrim, and a worshiper. My faith is a daily journey of discovery. I recognize both the depth of God’s mystery and the need for intentional reflection in my walk with Him. I see myself as a bridge connecting the timeless truths of Scripture to the lived realities of the people around me.
I also see myself as growing in confidence to live out my beliefs. While aware of inconsistencies and uncertainties in my theology, I embrace these tensions as opportunities for learning, dialogue, and spiritual growth. Faith is strengthened not in comfort, but in wrestling with questions, in community, and in reflective practice.
What Feels Good About That Description
What feels most affirming is the honesty and dynamism of this description. I am recognized not for perfection but for persistence, curiosity, and authenticity in my journey with God. It feels good to acknowledge that my faith is alive, responsive, and growing. I am both a student and a teacher of God’s truth, continually shaped by His grace and by the people and communities with whom I worship and serve.
I take comfort in knowing that my faith is relational and incarnational; it shapes how I love God, how I love others, and how I engage the world. This description reminds me that who I am in faith is deeply connected to the story of God at work in my life. Even amid uncertainty, God’s presence is shaping me, forming me, and leading me toward a mature, Christ-centered understanding of worship, theology, and living.
Conclusion: Continuing the Journey of Faith
Reflecting on my beliefs and the journey that has brought me here, I see that faith is less a destination and more a lifelong pilgrimage. It is a path marked by questions, encounters, challenges, and moments of awe, each shaping my understanding of God, myself, and the world around me. Theology and worship are central to this journey, reminding me that belief is not only held in the mind but expressed in life, in heart posture, and in daily choices.
What I believe today is the result of both guidance and discovery. Scripture, community, cross-cultural experiences, and personal reflection have all contributed to a faith that is thoughtful, dynamic, and relational. These experiences have taught me that God’s truth transcends tradition, culture, and circumstance, and living out that truth requires courage and humility.
Looking ahead, I am committed to integrating my beliefs into my vocation, relationships, and ministry, allowing theology and worship to shape not only my understanding but my actions. My faith is a story still being written, one that invites me to grow deeper in love, wisdom, and service. Ultimately, what matters most is persistence in seeking God, reflecting His character, and participating in His work in the world. My beliefs have shaped who I am today, and they will continue to guide the person I am becoming: a worshiper, a learner, a servant, and a faithful follower of Christ. May my story serve as a testament to the transformative love of God and inspire others to embark on their own journey of discovery and growth